Thursday, May 17, 2018

I'm Ready

Over the last few months you have all read about the preparations and planning of our upcoming move. While the logistics of it have been relatively easy one thing that has not been easy are the emotions of it. When you move as much as we do you experience an array of emotions. There is the initial excitement of moving to a new place (or for us a place that we called home for 4 years), the stress of finding a place to live, and then the sadness of saying goodbye to the people and place you've called home for whatever length of time. 

For us the worst time period is after everything is packed up and right before leaving. Since last week, Kyle and I both have been in this weird state of emotional limbo. For me, saying goodbye to my amazing tribe of friends is going to be really difficult. It's also the first place that E had friends, her little group is the best. On one hand, I am really sad to leave. On the other, I'm ready to just rip the band-aid off and go. E and I are also leaving 2 1/2 weeks before Kyle, so there is that added stress. I've been through deployments but this is the longest E will have gone without him (I know that she will experience deployments/TDYs but this is new for her). 

I have tried so hard to not disconnect myself from my friends here but I feel like that is my safety mechanism and my way of dealing with leaving. It's hard, because I know that come next week I will be an emotional wreck. I am doing my best to make the most of the time that I have left here, but part of me wishes it was the 27th already. It is such a weird emotional space to be in. I am thankful that most of my friends understand this and often times feel the same way so they don't take it personal. 

I'm fairly certain that after I leave next week, I will feel better. Also, I will remind myself that I will still stay in contact with all of my friends from here and that it's possible that we will be stationed together again in the future. Or even get together with our families for a fun vacation. I've even discussed coming back next year for a few fun events. 

It's going to be hard to say goodbye but I'm ready. I'm ready to move forward and embark on this new adventure. 


9 comments:

  1. Leaving Fort Leavenworth has been my toughest goodbye yet. And yes, there is a strong possibility you will be stationed with some of them again. I've kept in great contact with my group for our time there and we've gotten together for girls' weekends and some of us are even stationed in the same area. Best of luck as you prepare to say goodbye. It is never easy. ((Hugs))

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  2. Good luck with everything! I can't imagine how hard this life is but you are rocking it!

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  3. ARgh, I know exactly how you feel...! Just make the most of your time that's left there - it'll fly by and the new adventure isn't going anywhere! Hugs

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  4. I've always stayed in my hometown, when I "moved" it was only on the other side of town. I imagine it is a lot of emotions all rolled in one.

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  5. Good luck with the move! You can do it! New adventures are always fun. They can be rough, but worth it in the end.

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  6. I'm in the same place. I just want to get the drive over with and settle down, lol

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  7. That in between period is so hard! But yes, you'll now have friends scattered all over the country! We vacation with our military friends frequently, and we'll even be crashing at some houses through this upcoming move!

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  8. Same. Leaving Colorado was hard because I had a good group of friends. I also don't care for the limbo between packing out at the old place and getting settled in the new place. The moving road trip can be fun, but I'm normally ready to unpack and get going at our new home.

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  9. I remember feeling that with each and every PCS. Hugs!

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