Wednesday, December 5, 2018

One is Enough

Since posting that Kyle had a vasectomy, I had a few people message me and ask how we came to the conclusion that E was going to be our only child. To be honest, it was not a decision that we made lightly. We know how it feels to grow up with siblings and we often wondered if E would be missing out on that. I wanted to share how we came to this decision. I'm in no way justifying our decision to anyone because at the end of the day it's our choice. I just wanted to shed some light on our thoughts. 

If you have been following my blog for any length of time you know that we experienced recurrent pregnancy losses, 7 years of fertility problems, and multiple treatments. It was absolutely heartbreaking to go through. It was emotionally and physically draining on both of us. One of my biggest fears of attempting to get pregnant again is going through this all over again. I'm 33 years old right now and the thought of having more problems is just not something we are willing to risk. The heartbreak of a lengthy infertility journey is not something we want to experience again. I never want to have to write a post like this again.
Now my next reason might seem odd as we did struggle for so long to have E and having a successful pregnancy was so important. I DID NOT enjoy being pregnant. While I am so grateful to have experienced it, it was just not something that was enjoyable for me. It wasn't even weight gain or anything like that. I just never felt the overwhelming love of being pregnant. 
With Kyle being active duty military, it's hard! The reason I say this because of the constantly in and out of the service member. It's SO hard on kids when one parent is gone so frequently. We see E struggle a bit when Kyle is gone and how clingy she is when he returns. I can't even imagine having to manage the emotions of more than one kiddo. Shout out to all the parents out there that manage more than one kiddo within the military. Y'all are rockstars! 
Most of all we are a happy little family of 3. We have a good rhythm and routine. While I am sure that E would do well with a sibling, we don't want to rock to boat. We are SO blessed to have her and we just want to enjoy her. While we know that it's possible to spread love between all children, we don't want to have to do that. 
All of these reasons really fueled our decision to remain a family of 3. 

We are SO beyond thankful for E! As soon as she entered this world we knew that our family was complete. 

Monday, December 3, 2018

Monday Musings!!

Happy December, everyone!!!!

How are we only few weeks away from the end of the year?! My mind is blown.

We had a relatively low key weekend and to be honest that was just what we needed. On Thursday, Kyle had his vasectomy and was limited with what he could for for 72 hours. We had planned to run a 12k together on Saturday but since he couldn't, he stayed home with E so I didn't have to push her. 

The race was pretty great! A 12k is such an odd distance (7.45 miles) and one I have never run for a race. This course was hilly, holy cow. I feel every state we have lived in has inundated us with hills haha. I went across the finish line at 1:04:04 which I was thrilled with.
The medal is adorable!
The rest of the day was spent picking up groceries (I love you grocery pickup!) and hanging out inside because rain decided to make an appearance. Once E went to be I got to work on baking. I do this every year for Kyle and his coworkers. This year I made 4 different types of cookies and I'm so glad to have it all done. These chewy gingerbread cookies are my favorite. 
Sunday was the first day that Kyle felt like venturing out of the house. We made our way to Target and then to Jason's Deli for lunch. 

When we were at Target we decided to buy E a small Christmas tree. We made the decision to not put up our big tree as we are traveling to see my family for Christmas. We don't want to have to deal with putting it all up only to take it down before we leave. Can I just say that there is nothing like seeing the joy on your child's face when she see a Christmas tree! It's priceless.
She absolutely loves it and that makes us so happy. 

We were thrilled when later in the day a good friend of ours and her son came over for a visit. They are stationed at Fort Meade in Maryland but we became the best of friends when we both lived here previously. SO that's over 10 years of friendship. The kiddos played and had the best time.
It was so nice to catch up in person!

Kyle is back to work today, so E and I are back to our normal schedule after having him home for 4 days. 

I hope y'all had a great weekend!!!

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Some Things

Thank you all for your well wishes for E. She is doing SO much better. Her allergic reaction is all clear and she is back to her happy self. We are so thankful for that.
I have really been struggling on the blogging front. I just can't seem find a good rhythm. I really blame the holidays and everything that comes along with that. It seems from Halloween until the end of the year it's a bit chaotic. 

However, we do have some fun things happening over the next few weeks!

1. Kyle's unit Christmas party

This is on Tuesday and I'm really looking forward to it. It's an ugly sweater party which to me is even better haha. I haven't had the chance to meet most of his coworkers because they are NONSTOP busy. Working at a Division is a completely different beast. It should be a fun family event.

2. Five Finger Death Punch and Breaking Benjamin concert

I bought these concert tickets months ago and the concert is next Friday! We have seen them both in concert before and we knew we wanted to see them again. I'm so thankful that we have such a great babysitter to trust E with so we can enjoy this night out.

3. E's school Christmas performance 

I am SO excited for this. It's next Saturday and will feature a Christmas art gallery as well as a performance by all of the classes. I can't wait to see what her teacher has come up with. I'm sure it will be adorable and chaotic haha.

4. Santa Visit

We had planned to take E to see Santa this past weekend but with her reaction that got nixed. So we are taking her next Saturday and I can't wait to see how she does. She has gotten extremely clingy lately, so I'm sure it's going to be an epic photo. Ha!

5. Disney on Ice

I can't wait for this! We took E to Disney on Ice last year and she was still too little to appreciate it so we are excited to take her again. It has characters from the movie Coco in it which happens to be one of her favorites. We can't wait to see her reaction. 

6. Favorite Things SLAM Christmas party

I am really looking forward to this. It's a chance to get dressed up, eat yummy food, and exchange gifts with my SLAMfam. We are supposed to bring 4 of the same gift, which has to be a favorite thing of ours. I haven't chosen what I'm bringing yet, but I have a few ideas. 

We have other little things that we need to do around the house like decorate for Christmas and I need to order our Christmas cards. We are heading to Florida for the holidays so we won't be extensively decorating, probably just put up the tree for E. I know how much she loves the lights. Even though I've been slacking on the decoration front, I did get all of my Christmas shopping done! Woo hoo!

Have you decorated or shopped for Christmas yet!? 

Have a great Thursday!

Monday, November 26, 2018

Hello, Monday!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving and long weekend! Ours didn't go exactly how we had planned it to but such is life right?!

We were up bright and early on Thanksgiving morning so we could run the Skinny Turkey Half Marathon in Raleigh. It was a lot colder at the start than we expected but my goodness it was a beautiful course. Rolling hills through stunning neighborhoods. This is the first long distance race that Kyle and I both agreed that we didn't get bored with haha. There was so much to look at. He was pushing the stroller this time and we decided to just enjoy it. Not going to break any records but we were stoked to cross the finish line at 2:03. Almost a sub 2 hour half with a stroller, not too shabby at all! 
We stopped for our traditional post race Starbucks and headed home. I had done most of the meal prep the night before which was a huge help. 

However, this is where things turned not so fun. We noticed a pretty significant rash on E and around 3 we both agreed it would be best to take her to urgent care. She had been on amoxicillin for an ear infection the week before and the doctor determined it was a bad allergic reaction. Don't get me started on the doctor in October that said it wasn't an allergic reaction when she had the same exact rash after amoxicillin. She was given a steroid and the okay to go home. We enjoyed a quiet meal with just the 3 of us after a pretty stressful afternoon.

My Dad arrived Friday afternoon which is always nice! We love when he visits. E was definitely happy too. Unfortunately, on Saturday morning we noticed that E's rash was significantly worse so off to the ER we went. This doctor once again confirmed that it was an allergic reaction to amoxicillin, so on top of the steroid he gave us a cream and zantac to help with the itching. 

She was doing much better on Sunday so we spent quite a bit of time outside. Kyle had to work part of the day which was a bummer. 
My Dad is here for a few more days so we are going to soak up this time and just have a good time. 

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday!

Thursday, November 22, 2018

Happy Thanksgiving!

Wherever you are and whomever you are with, I wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving! 
We are running a half marathon this morning and then will have a very low key dinner at home with just the 3 of us. I am looking forward to a quiet and relaxing day. 

I am thankful for so much this year, even when things are hard. It's so important to remember all of the good things. 

Enjoy today! 

Monday, November 19, 2018

Weekend in Review

Happy Monday!!!! 

I hope y'all had a great weekend, we sure did!

Kyle finally arrived home late Thursday night and it was pretty amazing. E was so happy to see him (when she realized where we were haha). He had most of Friday off so he was able to come to SLAM with us in the morning which is a rarity these days. It's always fun working out together.
Afterwards, we stopped by our favorite bakery to grab some donuts. They are so sweet there and usually give E a free cookie, she never complains. 

We had a really low key evening which we all needed. We played outside and didn't go anywhere. It was glorious. 

Saturday morning we headed downtown for a local 10k. I was SO excited that Kyle was back because that meant I didn't have to push the stroller haha. I recently got new running shoes so this race was their maiden voyage. They didn't fail me! The course was pretty hilly (as is most of downtown Fayetteville) but that's always a fun challenge. I could see Kyle in front of me and I tried so hard to catch him haha. No luck. We both finished and placed in our age groups! 2nd for Kyle and 1st for me.
We headed home after grabbing Starbucks and it was nap time for E! We got some stuff done around the house and then it was was date night time! The babysitter arrived and off we went. We haven't been able to go out just us in quite a while. 
It was the best! We went to dinner at a yummy Italian restaurant, went to our favorite cupcakery, and then wandered aimlessly around Target. It was a wonderful few hours! I am thankful for a babysitter that has no problem putting E to bed, she is wonderful!

We got home and went into relax mode. We headed to bed pretty early as we had an hour drive up to Raleigh the next morning. 

One of my favorite thing about running races is supporting the charitable organizations that benefit from them. The 5k on Sunday was no different. It benefited the Wake County SPCA. We are both animal lovers and it was so awesome seeing so many owners and their pups there to run plus dogs that are needing homes. It was even better seeing dogs in Christmas costumes haha. E loved it!!

It was a well organized event and so much fun! I crossed the finish line behind Kyle and had no idea that I was the 1st female. I've NEVER won the female division at a race before. I was shocked because there were so many amazing athletes there.
At the end of the day we are so happy to support such great organizations!

We made the drive back home and just lounged the rest of the day. We did make a very special FaceTime call to our amazing niece, Kylie, who turned 12! I honestly cannot believe that she is 12! I remember when she was born. She is just the most amazing kid and we love her to pieces. She is rad!
It was a pretty great weekend and it's so nice having Kyle home! 

Have a great day!

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Thoughts on Thursday

It's Thursday right?! Haha my days have been all messed up this week. I blame the dreary and rainy weather the last few days.

I figured that today would be a good day to share some of the my thoughts!

*Thank goodness today is yoga at my workout class. I honestly can't believe that I just wrote that sentence haha. I was never a fan of yoga before but it's just so relaxing and a perfect way to just clear your mind and forget all the nonsense going on. I am in NO way flexible (think 2x4 haha) or good at it but I actually enjoy it. 
*Solo parenting is damn hard! It's exhausting emotionally and physically. Bless all of those amazing parents who are single parents, y'all are rockstars! I love E and would do absolutely anything for her but there are days I just want to go sit in the closet with a tub of ice cream because she is wearing every part of my soul down haha. Or there are the days I cave and buy her a giant penguin just to make her smile. 
*This leads me to be excited for Kyle's upcoming vasectomy haha! E is it for us, there are no more Smith babies happening in this family. We are perfectly content and happy with our family of 3. However, I'm not looking forward to the recovery for Kyle because he will admit, he is a baby haha. 
* Why does giving up soda come with raging caffeine withdrawal headaches?! Holy cow!!! This move wrecked me when it came to drinking soda and I fell off the wagon haha. Give me all the Dr. Pepper. However, I started feeling yuck again and I knew it was because of the soda. So it is back to just water. I'm sure my waistline will be thanking me in no time haha.
*I am SICK AND TIRED of all of the ugliness, sadness, and hate in the world right now. It makes me so sad to see all of it. I wish there was a way for all of us to put our differences aside and just live. I firmly believe that it is our responsibility to make the world a better place for our future generations and it starts with kindness and respect. The smallest acts of kindness can make the biggest difference. Even a simple smile can change someone's day.
Do me a favor, please?! Do or say something kind! It's not that hard and can change a person's day. 

Have a great weekend!