Friday, February 27, 2015

The Journey

5 1/2 years ago when we experienced our first miscarriage we had no idea just how difficult this journey was going to be. For me, I had known of a few people that had experienced it but never knew all that went into it. We were caught up in the emotion of expecting our first baby so the thought of losing it was never in our mind, then when it happened it was like someone had punched us both in the stomach. 

It was a feeling that unless you have experienced you will never know what it is like. I am not saying that to be rude but it's true. The 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th loss were just as painful, at some point there is a numbness that begins to set in. With each loss came a new feeling of fear and the inability to truly enjoy a moment of happiness when that positive test came along. 

There was a frustration knowing that my body was not capable of doing what it was meant to do, there was a frustration for Kyle that he could be the reason behind it all. With every new bump in the road there were new challenges. A blocked tube after an ectopic leading to the removal of that tube and starting over again in a new place having to explain several years of medical history. 

Throughout this journey we both have been very candid about our experiences, especially me. I want to bring awareness to a very real issue that 1 in 4 women experience. I do not look for sympathy from others, I look for understanding. I want those who are experiencing the joys of pregnancy to understand that I can still be happy for them but still have a jealousy that wishes it was me. I don't want people to feel as though they have to tiptoe around me, I am a big girl I can handle it. I can snuggle sweet babies of friends and family and still feel a tremendous amount of joy. 

Our next stop on this journey brings genetic testing in a few weeks, to hopefully finally have that "unexplained" diagnosis removed. With every step of this journey we realize more and more just how lucky we are to have an amazing family and group of friends who support us no matter what. Infertility does not define who I am, but I can assure you that it makes me a hell of a lot stronger. As difficult as this journey has been it has not taken away my ability to be happy.

I urge all of you that if you know someone struggling with similar circumstances, talk to them and listen. I can guarantee you that it will mean the world to them.






Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Ready for Vacation

This summer Kyle and I finally get to take a vacation, he has block leave the first two weeks of July and we are definitely going to take advantage of it!

The first week we have plans to go here: 


We have never been to Houston and there are a lot of places there that we have always wanted to see. The Johnson Space Center is definitely one of them, we plan on eating our way through the city and seeing the popular sites. It is only 3 hours from us so it is definitely ideal. We may even make the hour trip to Galveston to go to the Schlitterbahn Waterpark. 

The second week we are driving to my sister's and going here with the kids:


Universal Studios Orlando!!! We are going to spend 4 days there and we can't wait. Kyle has never gone on a trip like this with the kids so he is really looking forward to it. 

I am really looking forward to this time off with him, we both have definitely earned it. 

Do you all have any summer vacations planned yet?

Monday, February 23, 2015

Do What Is Best For You!

Have you ever had a bad feeling about a situation or a new job? Well, that was me last Thursday. I started in-processing for my new job and as I met with my soon to be supervisor she started describing the job and it was not at all what was disclosed to me during the interview process. The job was supposed to be a flex position, 0-40 hours per week and an occasional Saturday. The job was actually 40+ hours a week, 7 days a week and no benefits.

After talking to Kyle and my sister, Lisa, I made the choice to resign the position. With still being in school it was not a schedule that was going to work for me. I have to say after making the phone call to the HR department I felt a huge sense of relief. 

Now I will continue to focus on getting my degree and then it will be time for Grad school..


Hahaha this had me cracking up! I am on the hunt for scholarships to help with the cost (I will have 13 months of the GI Bill left to use), if y'all have any links for scholarship sites send them my way! :) 

Have you ever made a decision that was difficult but the right thing to do? 

Friday, February 20, 2015

Love Your Pets!!!

Today is National Love Your Pet Day! I have two of the best and I'm so thankful for them!! Emma has been a constant in my life for 11 years and Fishy for almost 7. They are the best and I couldn't imagine life without them!


Now go hugs your fur loves if you have some! :-)

Have a great weekend!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Things I'm Looking Forward To

I finally start in-processing for my job today! I still do not have a concrete start date but at this point any progression is better than nothing. I am excited to figure out my new normal and get into a routine. With Kyle being gone so much for work it will be nice to have something to keep me occupied. 

I am attending my first coffee for Kyle's task force, I was sick so I didn't attend last months. We are going to a local wine and paint place, which is always a good time. I have already met the majority of the wives so it will be nice to hang out and have some fun. 

Kyle's March rotation will be a little bit more relaxed so I am hoping we can actually get out and do some things, maybe go to a gator farm or go check out some cool plantations. We missed out on Mardi Gras completely because Kyle was working and I was in Florida, oh well maybe next year we will get to enjoy it.

I can't wait to get a tattoo similar to this with my sister! Hopefully we can make it happen the next time we are together.


I am looking forward to warmer weather, we have been experiencing some bipolar weather lately. I am ready for hot and humid summers. Please hurry!

Is there anything you are looking forward to?

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

About Me

I have noticed lately that I have acquired some new followers!! First let me say, Welcome! Second, I figured I would write a little about me post.


*I was born and raised in Las Vegas, Nevada. I get quite a lot of funny stares from people when I tell people that.

*My Mom passed away almost 4 years ago, it was one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with.

*My husband, Kyle and I met for the first time in our 6th grade history class. That was roughly 18 years ago, crazy how time flies. 

*We got married 2 months after we started dating, a cute little wedding at the Viva Las Vegas Wedding Chapel.


*Kyle and I have been struggling for the last 5 1/2 years with infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss. It is something that I talked pretty candidly about on here. For right now we spoil our dog and cat, Emma and Fishy.

*I have 8 tattoos and have plans to get more. All of them have a very special meaning.

*I am currently pursuing my bachelor's degree in Psychology. I will be finished in August!

*I am an Aunt of 10 kiddos....the oldest is 22 and the youngest is a little over a year old.

* I am the youngest of 5 children and have a ridiculously close relationship with my sister, Lisa. 


*I have gone skydiving and would love to do it again at some point...I say that now but would probably chicken out. 

* I was raised around drag racing, my Dad has raced since I was 4 years old. 


*Since Kyle and I have been married we have lived in 4 different states thanks to the Army. North Carolina, Arizona, Texas and now Louisiana.

*I have ran 41 races over the last 2 years to include a full marathon. It has helped me successfully lose over 40 pounds. 

That's me in a nutshell! :)

Happy Tuesday everyone!

Monday, February 16, 2015

Weekend in Florida

I arrived in Florida safely on Friday afternoon and have been having a great time since I got here! On Saturday, we headed over to my brother's house, loaded up the golf carts and headed down to the pond that is in their neighborhood to go fishing and grill. It was gorgeous but chilly weather, and we had a great time! It would have been even better if our Dad and Kyle had been there.


We spent Sunday hanging around my sisters house...we did venture out to take the dogs for a walk and enjoy the warmer weather.


Today, my sister and I are getting our nails done and going to the movies. A fun day with just my sister! 

It has been a great weekend but it will be nice to get home tomorrow and see Kyle (poor guy has been sick boo!).

I hope you all had an amazing weekend!

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Throwback Thursday

In honor of seeing my sister this weekend (yay!!!) I wanted to share this gem. This was taken almost 7 years ago at my wedding and has always been a favorite photo of mine.


Have a great Thursday!!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Wednesday Ramblings

I feel like the last few days have flown by...here is what has been going on in our area of the world.

* I have to take two proctored exams today, thankfully they do not factor into my GPA. They are for administrative purposes only.

* I finally start in-processing for my job next week, this whole process has taken a lot longer than I expected. However, that's what happens when you choose to work for the government. :)

*I have been doing my best to stay off FB lately, it just seems so negative. There are days where I don't even log on.

*We are finally experiencing warmer weather (sorry to all those who are dealing with snow), of course now that I have said it out loud it will get cold again. Emma has been going on lots of walks lately and she is loving it.



* I tweaked my ankle during the half this past weekend, it's still sore but thankfully I can let it rest a bit before our next half on March 8th.

* I am driving to Florida on Friday to see my family, Kyle has a busy schedule right now and I figured I would go before I start working. I'm looking forward to it!


What is going on in your neck of the woods!? :)

Happy Wednesday Everyone!

Monday, February 9, 2015

Park to Park Half Marathon

Saturday we got up bright and early to head off to Sulphur, Lousiana for our half. It was an hour and a half drive which wasn't too bad but at 5am you would rather be sleeping haha.

The weather was perfect, it was about 50 degrees at the start and ended around 70 degrees. The course literally spanned between two parks and was flat. I have to say the best part of the race were the volunteers riding bicycles and checking on runners in between water points. They had backpacks with water and GU just in case. It was nice to have that extra precaution in case you were struggling in between water points. I was definitely hurting by the end but it was good pain and as usual we had a blast.

The race benefited the local cross country team and being able to help out the kids is a win for me.


This is probably one of my favorite medals we have received! I have never seen a wood carved medal before so it is definitely unique.


We ended the day with dinner at a Japanese Hibachi restaurant and passed out by 9:30pm haha. Overall, I would say half marathon #12 was a success!

Hope you all had a great weekend!

Friday, February 6, 2015

It's Friday!

It's Friday!!! Oh thank goodness, I feel like this week has dragged by. 

I have been focused on school this week, I started 5 new classes on Monday and I always spend the first week getting into a flow and trying to figure it all out. I just have to keep telling myself that I'm almost done and that August will be here before I know it. 

We are running our 12th half marathon tomorrow and I can't wait! It's about an hour drive from our house but it will be well worth, we are supposed to have 70 degree weather for so I am definitely not complaining at all. It will be nice because I need to run off the effects of this ridiculously good peanut butter cup ice cream I made haha


Other than our race this weekend I have zero plans....I thought about going for a manicure and pedicure but then I realized just how cheap I am haha. Anyone else think it's crazy how much it costs? I'll probably just settle for doing it myself at home, that way I can stay in pajamas and watch Netflix.

What are your plans for the weekend?

Whatever you do I hope it's a great one!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Easy Treats

With Kyle's new job he spends a lot of time in the field which means he is either not eating or eating junk. I decided for this next rotation that I would make him snacks that he can keep in his truck.

Trail Mix is one of his favorite treats but it's not cheap to buy. I decided to make my own...it was cheaper to make it than it was to buy a small bag. I was able to make 12 baggies with 1 cup of trail mix in each.

In this trail mix there is:

cashews
peanuts
almonds
sunflower seed kernals
m&m's
raisins

Another treat Kyle loves is homemade nutrigrain bars. I love this recipe because I can individually wrap them and freeze them until they are ready to be eaten. One batch can make approximately 15, so it's more than enough to last for the 2 weeks he is in the field.


1 cup butter (or margagine) softened (30 secs in microwave worked well for me)
1 cup brown sugar
1 cup whole wheat flour
1 cup all purpose flour
1 1/2 cups oats
1 teaspoon almond extract 

press 1/2 the mixture into a 9X13 greased baking pan
spread a whole lot of jam (such as strawberry or raspberry preserves) on the top
crumble the rest of the mixture on top of the jam layer

Bake at 350 for 20-25 minutes.
Cool and cut into bars
 
These are always a hit, so I definitely suggest making them!

What are some of your go to easy treats?

Monday, February 2, 2015

Spirits 5k

Saturday afternoon we headed off to Alexandria for our first race of the year. It was the Spirits 5k. It was held at a local restaurant and to be honest it was one of the best organized ones we have ever participated in. Not only was the course awesome but the post race refreshments were amazing. Now for some races you get a ticket for one adult beverage, oh no not this one, you had free reign of a beer trailer! Haha, Kyle was a happy guy. There was beer, jambalaya, fried cinnamon rolls and king cake.

This was our first race since December and it felt great, Kyle did awesome and placed 2nd in his age group.




In honor of our first race of the year I registered for 2 more. I'm running a half this weekend and a 5k next weekend. Can't wait!

I hope you all had a great weekend.