Earlier this week I was really struggling with this whole infertility issue. I was frustrated because all around are ladies announcing pregnancies and having babies (don't get me wrong I am happy for them, do not misconstrue what I am saying). I am happy for them but sad for us. I am a week away from taking a pregnancy test for this round of clomid (have I said lately how sick I am of needles, pills and other procedures related to this). While I want to be excited the thought of taking it gives me anxiety. I wish starting a family was not so difficult for us, I see the ease in which others achieve this dream and I wish that for us. I am sad that we have had to say goodbye to five precious babies during our journey to be parents.
Yesterday I had someone tell me that if I just believed and prayed to God that I would get pregnant. Yeah I am pretty sure that is not how it works but okay. I am not knocking anyone's beliefs at all but please don't push them on me. This journey is hard enough without people tell me what I should be doing.
I do try to relax and let things happen but then I see another pregnancy announcement. *sigh*
Yesterday I had someone tell me that if I just believed and prayed to God that I would get pregnant. Yeah I am pretty sure that is not how it works but okay. I am not knocking anyone's beliefs at all but please don't push them on me. This journey is hard enough without people tell me what I should be doing.
I do try to relax and let things happen but then I see another pregnancy announcement. *sigh*
Thanks for bearing with me during this post, I just needed to vent and know that even if some of you don't agree with what I say you still show support.
For now I will put this in the back of my head and enjoy some family time in AZ this weekend.
