Earlier this week I was really struggling with this whole infertility issue. I was frustrated because all around are ladies announcing pregnancies and having babies (don't get me wrong I am happy for them, do not misconstrue what I am saying). I am happy for them but sad for us. I am a week away from taking a pregnancy test for this round of clomid (have I said lately how sick I am of needles, pills and other procedures related to this). While I want to be excited the thought of taking it gives me anxiety. I wish starting a family was not so difficult for us, I see the ease in which others achieve this dream and I wish that for us. I am sad that we have had to say goodbye to five precious babies during our journey to be parents.
Yesterday I had someone tell me that if I just believed and prayed to God that I would get pregnant. Yeah I am pretty sure that is not how it works but okay. I am not knocking anyone's beliefs at all but please don't push them on me. This journey is hard enough without people tell me what I should be doing.
I do try to relax and let things happen but then I see another pregnancy announcement. *sigh*
Yesterday I had someone tell me that if I just believed and prayed to God that I would get pregnant. Yeah I am pretty sure that is not how it works but okay. I am not knocking anyone's beliefs at all but please don't push them on me. This journey is hard enough without people tell me what I should be doing.
I do try to relax and let things happen but then I see another pregnancy announcement. *sigh*
Thanks for bearing with me during this post, I just needed to vent and know that even if some of you don't agree with what I say you still show support.
For now I will put this in the back of my head and enjoy some family time in AZ this weekend.
I have been feeling the same way, insanely jealous and upset over friend's having babies and I'm here, not pregnant. I'm making myself crazy with counting calendar dates and whatnot. I pray for you everyday and I hope you get the positive you so deserve soon.
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine how tough this must be for you. And I'm sure you've heard all the same-old-lines a million times. Keep your head up, hun. You will be a mom -- and you will be a GREAT mom!
ReplyDeleteFeel free to vent!!! It's very difficult to see everyone have that happiness.
ReplyDeleteLOTS OF HUGS TO YOU FRIEND!!!!! It will happen for you and Kyle, I just know it! Every one thinks they are the "expert" and you just have to take what they say and let it go in one ear and out the other. If you ever need me, you know you can text ANY time of the day! Have a great weekend and enjoy the family time in Arizona!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs your way. Enjoy your family time this weekend!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry some people have been hit with the stupid stick. What a horrible thing to say - I would have been a smart a$$ and explained the birds & bees to them....
ReplyDeleteTwo of my cousins had babies at the same time as I would have been due (had I not miscarried). Sometimes you just need to vent.
Good luck!
I can't believe that person told you that. Ugh. Anyway, every time I write something about baby girl, I honestly do think of all of you. All of my blog friends who did struggle or are struggling with infertility. It doesn't get forgotten and I can't really offer any words of advice. I can just keep you guys in my thoughts and send you positive vibes!
ReplyDeleteI've come to follow some really amazing ladies through the infertility circle and my heart breaks for all of you. I can't understand what you are going through, but I do know that it's something that makes these kinds of posts completely warranted. Vent away, friend. We're here for you....and rooting for you too!
ReplyDeleteThis might be a very unpopular opinion and I would never actually wish infertility on anyone but sometimes I think that maybe if certain people had to go through it, they'd be a lot more compassionate about other people's feelings who do go through it. But I truly believe that those who go through it and are able to end up with a baby, through any means, have an appreciation for their child(ren) that those who don't go through it don't have. Maybe people don't agree with that but I know that I have so much gratitude for my daughter and I realize exactly how much of a miracle she is, because of the hard time we went through to bring her here. You are still in my thoughts and prayers, even though I'm not around in blog world much anymore :)
ReplyDeleteI wish I could sprinkle you with my baby dust. I seriously feel so guilty when people like you, who would be such great parents, have such a hard time & I'm over here about to have another.. You and Kyle are in my thoughts. Hugs, friend!
ReplyDeleteI don't get it. I guess I will never get why some people open their mouthes. Like do you feel better now that you got your opinion out there? Can you go home and check that off your to-do list? People's insensitivity drives me to not want to be around people. ha! But it's true. I am sorry friend that you have to go through this, and even more sorry that dumb asses throw it in your face. I hope and pray for you and Kyle!
ReplyDeleteI think people mean well, but that doesn't make what they say any easier to swallow if it's not a comfort. Wishing you a happy fun-filled weekend.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry! I can't believe someone would say that to you.
ReplyDeleteVent all you want, honey! Some of the things that come out of people's mouths are unbelievable. I'm so sorry this hasn't been an easy road for you and I know the struggles are hard to bear sometimes.
ReplyDeleteVent all you want girl. I don't know what there is to say that could possibly help, but do know that my heart goes out to you and I DO pray for you and all the others whose hearts ache for a baby. I know that one day you will be a bother, no matter how that happens and that is going to be one lucky child :) Hang in there girl!
ReplyDeleteI'm in the same boat! A week away from testing...then it's almost a year long hiatus from ttc...people mean well, but not everything is in God's hands, sorry. It's a science, geesh! Hugs, xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou have absolutely every right to vent! Hugs, friend! It will happen one day, I just know it will! And you guys will be the best parents ever. Seriously!
ReplyDeleteSo know how you feel. Over seven years of infertility treatments.
ReplyDeleteI think whoever told you to just believe and pray and it will happen is very wrong. I think the whole "faith like a mustard seed" verse is taken out of context. We can pray all we want for something but sometimes God doesn't answer our prayers. That being said, you are in my prayers and I know you will have kids someday whether naturally or through adoption.
ReplyDelete*Hugs* I will send as many good vibes as I can your way.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your thoughts. Nobody has the answer to your situation. Hang in there, smile, say thanks and move on. Hugs and prayers. Enjoy family they are special. We just lost our mom a couple weeks ago and it's been rough but am hanging in there. Enjoyed the day out with my daughter today in Hood River and lavender gathering and seeing the mtns were so lovely. Get a ways are great! Even if it was in the 80 heat wise. No sunburn though! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI know how heavily your fertility journey weighs on your heart. I'm sorry to hear that people are making insensitive, ignorant comments. It's hard, but maybe it helps to think of it like that: they just don't know what they are talking about.
ReplyDeleteHopefully the time with your family puts the wind back into your sails!
Venting will always make you feel better and we are all here to support you. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI wish sometimes people would know when they don't know what to say that not saying anything at all is perfectly fine in this situation as is a simple, I'm praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI just came across your blog and while my hubs being in the army as well I too struggle with infertility :( venting is great at least it has helped me. Praying for you xoxo
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