Infertility Journey

Since we moved to Arizona we agreed to put the infertility treatments on hold. I am starting to get anxious to get things going again. Once we find out where we are going next I will start researching doctors and reach out to them. I probably know of at least 20 different people that are expecting and I am ready to be one of them. After 4 miscarriages it gets very draining and wrecks me emotionally. I am normally very good about keeping my emotions in check but I do have my moments, which I am sure is normal.

I try to be very open, honest and candid about our situation. I know people get cautious around us and I completely understand but I don't want to be. I am an open book with this journey. It has made us who we are and it has made our relationship so much stronger. 

Right now I am waiting for the "Evil P" to make her appearance, she hasn't shown up since the end of July. Before you say anything lol, yes I have tested and have gotten nothing but negative results. I keep trying to tell myself that maybe it's too early but who knows. I have a feeling that if I don't get a positive test or the "Evil P" I will be making an appointment to see a doctor to just make sure everything is ok. 

We have also talked about that if we can't have children naturally that we will definitely pursue adoption. I know there are plenty of children out there that need families to love and nurture them. There is also the option of surrogacy, we have not ruled that out as a possibility. We are ready for a sweet baby to take up all of our time.

 We have had the support of our amazing families and friends throughout our struggles and it means the world to us. I also have friends who struggle with the same thing we do and I pray for them everyday and wish for them what I wish for us. 

I know that one way or another we will be parents and we will be damn amazing parents! 

Thank you for letting me ramble, I just needed to get this off my chest.