Since we moved to Arizona we agreed to put the infertility treatments on hold. I am starting to get anxious to get things going again. Once we find out where we are going next I will start researching doctors and reach out to them. I probably know of at least 20 different people that are expecting and I am ready to be one of them. After 4 miscarriages it gets very draining and wrecks me emotionally. I am normally very good about keeping my emotions in check but I do have my moments, which I am sure is normal.
I try to be very open, honest and candid about our situation. I know people get cautious around us and I completely understand but I don't want to be. I am an open book with this journey. It has made us who we are and it has made our relationship so much stronger.
I try to be very open, honest and candid about our situation. I know people get cautious around us and I completely understand but I don't want to be. I am an open book with this journey. It has made us who we are and it has made our relationship so much stronger.
Right now I am waiting for the "Evil P" to make her appearance, she hasn't shown up since the end of July. Before you say anything lol, yes I have tested and have gotten nothing but negative results. I keep trying to tell myself that maybe it's too early but who knows. I have a feeling that if I don't get a positive test or the "Evil P" I will be making an appointment to see a doctor to just make sure everything is ok.
We have also talked about that if we can't have children naturally that we will definitely pursue adoption. I know there are plenty of children out there that need families to love and nurture them. There is also the option of surrogacy, we have not ruled that out as a possibility. We are ready for a sweet baby to take up all of our time.
We have had the support of our amazing families and friends throughout our struggles and it means the world to us. I also have friends who struggle with the same thing we do and I pray for them everyday and wish for them what I wish for us.
I know that one way or another we will be parents and we will be damn amazing parents!
Thank you for letting me ramble, I just needed to get this off my chest.
I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this! I believe that things tend to work out in their own way and we tend to be pretty happy with it all in the end. I wish you and your husband the best of luck. I'm sure you will make great parents one way or another!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing this. My husband and I began trying when I moved out here a few months ago. I'm still waiting to see that double pink line, and waiting for "Evil P" myself! It's really frustrating to have my body acting weird and not getting the result we want. Best of luck to you and your husband on this journey!
ReplyDeleteI'm crossing my fingers for you! I hate knowing that things have been so hard on this journey - but usually the harder the journey is, the better the reward seems to be at the end. The great thing is, one day you WILL be parents and when you are, you'll be some of the greatest parents ever!
ReplyDeleteI'm adding you to my daily prayer list. God has some great plan, let's see if we can't bug him into action. ;)
I can only imagine how frustrating this all is for you and will be sending positive thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteIt seems like you have such a good handle on something as emotionally tolling as infertility, but I wanted you to know, that as a random internet person who recently found your blog, I'm going to send you all sorts of positive baby vibes. It's worth something, right?
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear about this! I hope your baby comes soon for you!
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine what that's like to go through, I think it's great that you are so open with people about it. I'll be sending prayers and positive vibes your way, stay strong!
ReplyDeleteI was wondering recently how you were doing but I didn't want to ask! I hope someday SOON you'll be surprised to see a positive result on that test! :)
ReplyDeleteI know how you are feeling all too well. If you ever want to talk about the adoption route I would be more than happy to share our experience!
ReplyDeleteI have no doubt that you'll look back on this time in your life and one day see the strength it's building in you and how it is preparing you for motherhood in whatever form that comes. Break down as often as you need! Being open and sharing your experience will help so many others. You're in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteI want to give you such a big hug. You are SO strong! I am in awe of you. I'll be thinking about both of you.
ReplyDeleteI wish you were here so I could give you a huge hug! I have no idea what the Lord has planned for any of us, but I do know, WITHOUT A DOUBT, one thing.. you two are going to be parents one day, one way or another. I also know that that child will be one of the luckiest in the world to have two loving parents that want him/her in thier lives so badly!
ReplyDeleteWe tried for a year. Then they put me on progesterone and let me tell ya, the mail man could have been a victim. Seriously, but it worked. I hope you find your dream. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this, Jen. I wish you all the best on your journey to becoming a mum :)
ReplyDelete((((Hugs))))Lots of them from across the world. That is all...
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