I normally don't post twice in 1 day but I need to get something off my chest.
As my trip to Vegas gets closer, I'm missing my Mom even more. It is so hard going home knowing that she isn't there. I will be staying at my Dad's while I'm there and I can feel her all around me in the house. I am thankful that I get to spend time with my Dad, sister, brother in law, niece and nephew.
As my trip to Vegas gets closer, I'm missing my Mom even more. It is so hard going home knowing that she isn't there. I will be staying at my Dad's while I'm there and I can feel her all around me in the house. I am thankful that I get to spend time with my Dad, sister, brother in law, niece and nephew.
I really thought that it would get easier as time went by (she passed away March 31, 2011) but that is not true at all. If anything it gets harder, I hate that our future children will never get to know their grandma and how wonderful she was. I really just want to scream at the top of my lungs:
SCREW YOU CANCER!!!!!!!!
I hate that she had to suffer for 10 months because of you, I hate that you took an amazing woman from this world.
Living in NC while she was sick was tough but I was able to go home a lot and spend time with her. I was lucky enough to be with her 2 days before she passed and while I was with her she gave me this:
SCREW YOU CANCER!!!!!!!!
I hate that she had to suffer for 10 months because of you, I hate that you took an amazing woman from this world.
Living in NC while she was sick was tough but I was able to go home a lot and spend time with her. I was lucky enough to be with her 2 days before she passed and while I was with her she gave me this:
I will cherish this for the rest of my life. I know that she is with me everyday and that she is looking out for my whole family.
I want to share a few pictures of my life with an amazing woman!
Mom and Me one week after I was born
Our Wedding Day
At the race track
Beautiful!
New Years Eve 2010
Spending time with Mom at the Cancer Treatment Center of America in Phoenix
My last picture with my Mom
A tree we had planted in honor of a wonderful woman!
This video was taken at her celebration of life last June.
I love you and miss you everyday!
I am sorry to hear about your mom. It is so tough to lose a parent at a young age. I lost my mom eight years ago at the age of 24. If you ever need a cyber shoulder to cry on, I am available.
ReplyDeleteAwe Jen I really feel for you. This post had me in tears. You are so strong admits all this. I can't even imagine losing my mom. Know that I'm thinking and praying for you
ReplyDeleteIm so sorry that you lost your mom :( I couldn't imagine going through that. Stay strong and enjoy the time with your dad.
ReplyDeleteMy heart hurts for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment. (I'm replying on here since I can't respond to your email)
DeleteSo sorry Jen. This made me tear up but can I jump on your bandwagon and scream "SCREW YOU CANCER" for you?!?! :)
ReplyDeleteI would have probably used another word for screw but not everyone has my language thoughts. I hate cancer. Its disgusting. Took my step dad in January. I hate it. Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteYour mom was a beautiful woman, my dear! My heart goes out to you.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your time with your family and celebrate your mom's life with them!
She was so beautiful! I am so truly sorry to hear that she was taken from you.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you girl. That is so so tough and I won't even pretend to know how much it hurts. Praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you're having a hard time. We lost my grandma to cancer a couple years ago...and cancer sucks and it takes way too many wonderful people form this world! Hang in there...
ReplyDeleteFUCK CANCER!! :( I lost my stepmom to breast cancer when I was 14. It was probably a bit more easier for me than my brother and sister since she wasn't my "real" mom, but she raised me from about 4 years old so it was still pretty rough. When I think about my own mom or dad dying, though, my heart fills with anxiety. I can't imagine what you are going through and can't imagine that it could ever get any easier, unfortunately. So so so sorry, hun. :(
ReplyDeleteOh my heart aches for you! I am so sorry for your loss! And that sculpture she gave you is precious! Prayers for a warm heart and lots of smiles on your visit!
ReplyDeleteThanks Tyah, I really appreciate it! (I'm replying on here since I can't respond to your email).
DeleteMy grandpa dies of cancer and while obviously a grandparent hurts in a different way than a parent, I can understand in a way. I think you look so much like your mom! :)
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This post made me cry..! I am so sorry for the loss of your mom! I can't imagine what a terrible feeling it must be. Screw cancer.
ReplyDeleteThanks! I appreciate your sweet comment (I'm replying on here since I can't respond to your email).
DeleteI am so sorry girl! Cancer takes far too many wonderful people from us :( I hope that being with your family eases your sadness a bit.
ReplyDeleteJen, your mom looks like a beautiful, amazing lady and I can't even imagine how difficult it must have been for you and your family to have to go though that. I am so sorry for your loss, I hope you have a wonderful trip visiting your family and that it helps you to feel closer to her and remember all of the beautiful memories you all had with her.
ReplyDelete((hugs)) hon. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteIm sorry for your mom's untimely passing. Thank you for sharing your memories with us!
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