I Am Grateful For All Of It

The last few weeks I have been reflecting on this pregnancy as well as our journey to get here. Everything we have gone through came rushing back when I came across this tiny case when I was cleaning out underneath the sink in our bathroom.

Unless you have gone through fertility treatments or know someone who has you would never know what this case is for. It ruled my life for a long time and every time I had to open it the tears would stream down my face wondering if we would ever become parents. The shots I had to give myself (which I would strategically form into a smiley face just to make myself feel better) every few months and waiting for the side effects to happen, waiting for blood draws, ultrasounds, and exams were exhausting but it was worth it. The emotional toll it took on us after each miscarriage, and waiting before we could start over again.

Did we have our moments of doubt, frustration, and anger? Absolutely, that's only normal. We also knew that we would be parents some day.

I thought about throwing it away but honestly I couldn't bring myself to do it because it is part of our journey.

 

As we prepare for the birth of our daughter (which could be at any moment now), I realize just how lucky we are. We are lucky because we have healthcare that has allowed us to take advantage of fertility treatments, that provided us with doctors who did the best they could, and brought a doctor into our lives who changed everything and we are forever grateful for her.

I know there are aspects of pregnancy that are less than desirable but I have enjoyed every single second. However, I would never diminish or criticize a woman who does not enjoy being pregnant. I am grateful for the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I look at myself and realize how far we have come these last 7 years and I know that this is happening during this time of our lives for a reason. I am grateful!

I am proud of the journey we have been on because it has brought us to this moment. I have grateful for the friendships it has brought with others going through the same thing. I am grateful for the closeness that it brought with family and friends.

For those going through infertility, you are not alone, there are so many people who love and support you. Your journey is worth it even though it may not seem like it now.