Thursday, January 28, 2016

I Wish

Today marks 10 weeks in this pregnancy and for us double digits is a huge milestone! I am starting to feel better which is amazing and my energy is slowly coming back which is nice because I am starting 2 more Grad School classes next week. You don't have to ask, yes I am crazy. ;)

Since we found out we were expecting there has been one thing constantly on my mind and I am certain it will always be on my mind. I am sad that I will never get to share this experience with my Mom. I wish she was here to see this miracle finally happening because she wanted this so much for us. I am sad that our baby will never have that special relationship with their grandma but I will make sure everyday that they know how much she wanted to be there for them and how much she loves them even though she isn't here. I will share stories about her and make sure this baby knows who she is and that her memory never fades.

Me and my Mom a few days after I was born.

I am so grateful that this baby will have so many amazing family members that will spoil them and love them but there will always be that wishing that my Mom was here to share in that joy as well. We have decided that if this little one is a girl she will share the same middle name as my Mom, which is Kay. 

I do however know my Mom is looking down on us and smiling.

 

24 comments:

  1. <3 to you, lady! I can only imagine how you feel, but I do believe your mom is smiling down on you :)!

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  2. You will be an amazing mom and to be able to share the stories of your momm with your child is amazing. I am in the same boat only with #babybigtruck not knowing my grandmother who was like a mother to me. Hang in there!

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  3. hang in there girl. you're going to do amazing things and your mom will always be there for you, even if she's not there in person. :) so glad i found your blog! xo

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  4. Big Hugs!! Super excited for you all! If you ever need anything please let me know!

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  5. Lots of hugs heading your way on this one, for sure!

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  6. Aww, I love your mom's middle name! ;) I have already decided my first-born girl will be named Evelyn Kay after my Mamaw, both of my sisters (middle names Eve and Lynn), and me and my mom. She will have quite the legacy to live up to!

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  7. My mom's mom passed three years before I was born, and it's always been really hard on my mom that she didn't get to introduce her mom to her children. It's always been VERY special to me though to talk about her a lot and to find out as much about her as possible. I feel like I know her and love hearing stories about her and seeing her pictures. I know your baby will also feel so loved like I did knowing how much his/her grandmother would have loved him/her.

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    1. It's such a hard thing to go through. Sending lots of love your way!

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  8. Aw this made my eyes tear up. My favorite grandfather passed when I was in the 2nd grade. It was so hard on us all. I wish so much he could have been here to see me get married and graduate from law school.

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    1. It's all the special moments that make it even harder. Hugs!

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  9. She is definitely there with you in spirit and she would be so proud!

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  10. Aw. What a sweet post. I love that photo.

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    1. :) Thank you, it's definitely a favorite!

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  11. Awww! I understand this completely, and it is sooo tough to go through something so special without a parent. I love that you'll be using her middle name if it's a girl. :)

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  12. Aww, Jen. She is definitely smiling down on you as your belly grows! Chris has a really hard time with my pregnancy with Odette since it was so soon after she passed, and it hurts that she never got to meet Avalon. Hang in there!

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  13. First things first, congrats on reaching 10 weeks! I'm glad you're feeling much better. But I fully sympathise with you about missing your Mom, and I'm sorry things are hard :( I don't know how you're feeling of course, but I get sad myself when I think about if/when I might have kids in the future and the fact that I won't be able to share that with my Dad, and my children won't know him. It breaks my heart every time I think about it. It sounds like you have a great approach to the situation though, and that's the best we can ever do, right?

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  14. I'm so sorry your mom will never meet your child. My FIL passed away about 6 weeks before I had my son and that was hard for my husband. He was becoming a father right when he lost his own. But that is great that you are feeling better. Yay!

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  15. I am glad you are feeling better! It is amazing how different you can feel when you reach the second trimester.

    It is tough to have your own kids after losing your mom. I try to tell stories about my mom to my girls, but I know it isn't the same. She was an awesome grandma to my niece and nephew, and I feel sad that my kids didn't get the same experience.

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  16. Kay is a beautiful middle name. :) I'm sorry your mom isn't here but like you said, there are so many other people here to love and cherish the baby.

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  17. Love that if it's a girl, she will share her grandma's middle name. Your baby is so blessed to have such a beautiful guardian angel watching over them already!

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  18. Happy 10 weeks!! Your mom will always be with you and your little one <3

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  19. Your sweet baby will have a wonderful angel watching over them from Heaven :)

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