After much thought and tears I have decided to turn down the job I was offered. I'm sure many of you are thinking "You were so excited, what changed?!" I realized all the things I would be missing out on. I want to volunteer and get to know people here and I feel like working would prohibit that. I think that I'm not the working type anymore (as much as I thought I was), it just doesn't make me happy.
After coming to this decision I feel like a weight has been lifted.