Over the weekend, Kyle ran a 5k mud run on post and let me just say that standing on the sidelines sucked haha. Obviously I am 100% grateful and blessed that we have E but man not being able to do much physical activity has been really hard for me.
My recovery has been relatively easy but my doctor is really wanting me to wait the full 6 weeks until I get back into my normal running routine which I understand. However, one thing that people don't really talk about is how much your body really does change postpartum. I made the mistake of trying on clothes from pre-pregnancy a few days ago and all it did was wreck my self-confidence. Kyle and my sister have reminded me that I had a baby only 2 1/2 weeks ago and that I shouldn't be so hard on myself, which to be honest is easier said than done.
I did not gain a ton of weight but my body has changed, I am proud of what my body did, it brought a healthy baby girl into the world and that is amazing to me. However, I am happy that my body is mine again and that once I get the okay I can work my butt off to get back to where I was. It will take time but I know I will embrace how my shape has changed and I will have to work to be strong, healthy, and fit again. I have not been completely inactive though, we have been going on 1-3 miles family walks every night and it has felt good to at least get the legs moving. E and I will also be walking a 5k this weekend, she is perfectly content in her stroller with her fan blowing on her.
I know that I will get back to where I want to be and that it will take time, I'm just anxious to start. I have to remember that it's a process and to not get down on myself.
I'll get there, it will just take a little time. :)