Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Another Let Down

When Kyle and I were on vacation in San Antonio I noticed that I wasn't feeling quite right. For a few nights in a row I was sick to my stomach and hardly slept. When we got home I had a weird feeling that I might possibly be pregnant. I had a pregnancy test laying around so I took it. To my surprise 2 lines popped up! I was hesitant and excited. I couldn't believe that this was actually happening again. 

I went in first thing that following Monday to the OB Sick Call to have my blood drawn. I got the results later in the day and the results weren't good. Levels were extremely low for how far along I was expected to be, but I was still considered pregnant. Come to find out it was a chemical pregnancy. Another let down and our hopes were shattered. We will just keep trying and pray that it all works out. No matter where this journey takes us we will do it together and be stronger because of it.




Hugs and Prayers to all the wonderful couples that struggle with this everyday like we do.

61 comments:

  1. So sorry to hear this, Jen. I was literally just thinking about your journey yesterday. I finally started all my doctor's appointments but our hospital won't have any OB/infertility referral capability until Oct at least. In the meantime we're just plugging along. Sending lots of love and faith to you and Kyle. <3

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  2. :( Jen, I'm so sorry I wish I could hug you. Let me know if you ever want to talk.

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  3. I'm sorry, that must always be really challenging, I can't even imagine. I have high hopes for you to be a mom one day no matter how it happens. You'll be a wonderful mommy! Your always in my thoughts in prayers

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  4. I'm so sorry! You and Kyle are in my prayers. Hugs!

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  5. Oh hun, I'm so sorry. :( Big hugs to you and Kyle.

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  6. You poor thing. I had a series of three chemical pregnancies in a row when trying for Taylor and even if they aren't considered miscarriages, they certainly hurt like no other. Especially for you since you've had such a heart wrenching past.

    Hang in there, pretty lady!

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  7. This is heartbreaking. So sorry, friend. Thinking of you...

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  8. Aw girl I am so sorry!! Praying!

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  9. Lots of hugs and prayers coming your way from me Jen!

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    1. Thank you, Rachel! I really appreciate it.

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  10. I'm so sorry, Jen! Sending many hugs your way and will keep you and Kyle in my prayers. Hopefully, your time visiting family will help cheer you and give you strength to try again very soon!

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  11. I'm so sorry. Lots of prayers for you and your husband.

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  12. Oh my!! I will keep you in thought and lots of prayers will be coming your way.

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  13. I am so sorry that you have to endure this tough journey. I sincerely hope and pray that God uses your tough journey to glorify Him in a great way! Keep leaning on Him!

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    1. Thank you, Emily!! I really appreciate that.

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  14. My heart hurts for you. So sorry to hear this.

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  15. Oh my. I'm so sorry. My best friend lost a baby this morning too. It's just awful. Xoxo

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  16. So sorry chica. :( You guys are in my prayers a lot!

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  17. Oh sweet girl! I'm so sorry!!! I will be praying for you and Kyle!

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  18. Oh friend. I am so sorry! Huge hugs for you and Kyle. This breaks my heart! I pray for you all the time that you'll be blessed with a little Smith.

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  19. I am so sorry. :( I read a post about this recently at Nat the Fat Rat
    {http://www.natthefatrat.com/2013/07/chemical-miscarriages-and-things.html} and it broke my heart. I am so sorry to hear you have gone through this :(

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  20. Oh Jen, I can't imagine :( My husband and I have been trying for well over two years now, so I can completely relate. I have to believe it will happen for you, lovely. God's got this.

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  21. I'm so sorry to hear this. Sending hugs your way!

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  22. It most likely does not help but as you write of your struggles with pregnancy it helps me to realize how precious Little One is to me.

    I pray for you.

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  23. I've been there, my friend, so I'm holding hands with you in my mind. It is very hard to have hope, then not. It feels like a roller coaster. My story had a very happy ending after really hard and trying times. I am praying that you find strength to deal with the hard times, so that you can get to the happy ending too.

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    1. Thank you, Rachel!!! :) I very much appreciate it.

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  24. I'm so sorry, Jen. I don't know what to say. I'm sorry that it affected your vacation and that it didn't end up in the good news you hoped for and so deserved. But please don't lose hope that it will happen. One day, you will hold your baby, I know that!

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  25. So sorry Jen! :( Prayers for you two!

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  26. Jen, I pray you find the strength to find hope and make it through and never stop trying. God is good, I believe that to the core, and I am sending prayers, comfort, and love your way. xoxo, Rachael

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    1. Thank you so much my dear sweet friend!

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  27. Your strength and courage amazes me every day. With everything that you have gone through you still have a beautiful outlook on life. I hope to God {and I really don't pray - I should but I don't} that you are rewarded soon my friend.
    Hugs!

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    (¸¤ Lanaya | xoxo
    Raising-Reagan.com

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  28. :( that sucks! There is a couple Facebook miscarriage support groups if you want to join I can give you info. Praying for you!

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  29. So very sorry that you lost another pregnancy.

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  30. I have no words of wisdom to offer, but I can offer you virtual hugs. I'm thinking about you and Kyle.

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    1. Thank you Amy! I appreciate it

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  31. I can't even imagine. You are in my prayers!

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  32. Hugs to you. No one should have to go through that, I'm so sorry.

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  33. I'm so sorry to hear this! Sending you love and light and praying that next time it will be better news for you!

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  34. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be praying for you during this devastating time. "Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; 4Who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted of God." (1 Corinthians 1:3-4) I've been where you are, and I am here for prayer and support as you need it.

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    1. Thank you sweet friend! It means a lot.

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  35. Hugs and prayers for you and Kyle. Keep the faith that it will be positive one day. Hugs, my friend.

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    1. Thank you! I very much appreciate it.

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  36. I am so very sorry that you have to experience this :-( I sincerely hope that one day {sooner rather than later} you have the opportunity to become a mother!

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  37. Hugs & prayers for you both, friend.

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  38. I'm so sorry to hear this Jen. Sending you and Kyle lots of good thoughts and hugs. <3

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  39. Oh my heart just aches for you. Never lose hope and always have faith. Hugs to you my friend. I'm so sorry you had to go through this.

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  40. I am here praying for you! Xoxo

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  41. I'm so sorry to hear this Jen. I understand the pain of a miscarriage, even if it's "only" deemed a chemical pregnancy. You were still pregnant. Thinking of you and Kyle.

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  42. I'm so sorry. I wish there were words that made it easier but if there are, I don't know them. Hope you're doing whatever you need to make yourself feel better...sushi and wine were always my go-to's after a miscarriage

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  43. So sorry. Wish I could make it better for you.

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  44. I am so sorry, Jen. I can't imagine the ups and downs that you are going through in your journey. Hang in there. *HUGS*

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  45. Oh, Jen. My heart hurt reading this. I'm sorry you had to go through this and everything else. You deserve so much!

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