Never Forget

I can't believe that it has been 12 years since our country was changed forever. Having a husband who serves in the military and has deployed overseas make it's incredibly personal for me and so many others. We will never forget those who lost their lives that day. We will never forget those brave men and women who lost their lives defending our freedoms.We will always support and love their families.

Early last year Kyle and I had the honor and privilege of visiting the 9/11 Memorial in NYC. What a humbling experience, feeling the emotion that filled that space is an experience I will never forget.

Please take a moment today and remember all those we lost and all those who are still fighting for our freedom.

Never Lose Hope

Before I get into the reason behind this post I want to give our reasons for announcing our pregnancy so early. We have been through several miscarriages throughout our 5 years of marriage. We didn't announce all of the pregnancies and when they ended we felt so incredibly alone. We had no one to talk to and no support system. It was the most lonely and awful feeling. We knew that when we announced that there was always a possibility that something could go wrong but we took our chances.

Fast forward to now...well the worst has happened. I had a few issues that had me in the OB clinic, although not alarming still cause for concern. Let me just say that dealing with all of this while Kyle was gone is incredibly difficult but he has been amazing from far away. We got the results yesterday and they were not good. I was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy (for those that don't know it's a pregnancy that develops outside of the uterus in the fallopian tube). I was crushed, defeated and lost. They administered a shot that would help me pass everything and get my HCG levels back down to 0. If we opted against this shot it could be very dangerous for me. It will take a few days, maybe even a week or so to happen. 

To not have my husband here has been the worst part of it all. He is struggling right now to stay focused on work but I know he is hurting. I can hear the pain in his voice, he finally comes home tonight and I can't wait. 

To have the love and support of family and friends has been so comforting. After I left the hospital I met up with Britt and we had lunch. It was so nice to be with a friend and have time to talk about anything and everything.

Through all of this we haven't lost hope, we know that our time will come and that we will be blessed with the most perfect child. We don't know how it will happen whether it be naturally, adoption or surrogacy we WILL be parents. I don't doubt that at all.

I promise I will get back to reading blogs sometime this week, just taking time to process all of this. Hugs everyone!

Lazy Weekend

Since Kyle left early last week I haven't really done much. I am been exhausted (thank you baby) and have had no desire to do anything. Makes me even more thankful that I opted to do school online. I can just wake up and work on school while staying in my pj's. The first week of school was good, I'm enjoying it and thankfully not bored.

This weekend was spent resting and lounging around the house. Saturday was deemed a Disney movie day. I watched Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Cinderella and Aladdin. Fishy decided to join me for a bit, he slept on the recliner with me.

Overall it was a low key weekend, looking forward to Kyle coming home this week so I have someone else other than the animals to talk to. 

Hope you all had a great weekend!

Good Company

I just have to say that while Kyle is away I have the 2 most precious companions to keep my company. Of course they spend most of their day sleeping but that's okay with me.

Emma and I ventured out yesterday for a walk and we both were miserable. It was very hot and windy so the walk didn't last very long. I'm ready for some cooler weather, I have already stocked up on cardigans and long sleeve shirts from Target haha.

I'm having a much needed lunch date today with a very dear friend to catch up. Good food and good company, it doesn't get any better than that.

I hope you all have an amazing day!

Such A Gift!

I'm sure over time you all will get sick of these updates about my pregnancy haha. I went in yesterday morning to schedule my first appointment and also get the results from my 1st blood draw that was done on Friday. I was beyond excited when those results came in and showed that everything was going good. 

My first appointment is scheduled for September 12th, I will be roughly 7 weeks. I had more blood work done and had to wait for those results to come back. I got the call and was so relieved to hear that my levels had tripled since Friday!!!! 

We are so excited that all is wonderful with Baby Smith, my estimated due date is May 1, 2014! This is something that we have hoped and prayed for for so long and for it to finally be happening is remarkable!

Wishing you all a wonderful Wednesday!!!!

Back To School!

I officially started school yesterday and I couldn't be more excited! I just have to say it's pretty cool to go to school while still wearing pajamas. Haha. I'm slowly getting acclimated to the system and can already tell my first 2 classes are going to be great! Here is to a great year for everyone!

 This post will be short since I'm off to the doctor today to try and make my first appointment, lets hope it goes smoothly.

Hope you all have a great day!

A Long Weekend

First of all, I want to thank everyone for all of the congratulations and well wishes! It means a lot to have so much love and support.

This past weekend was a lot of fun! We already had quite a bit planned before we found out I was pregnant so it made it that much better. Friday we were supposed to have massages done but we opted to cancel those and just relax around the house.

Saturday we had a barbeque to go to, so we got to hang out with a lot of people from Kyle's work. A few people requested my hot artichoke and spinach dip. It smelled so good, too bad I don't like it. Haha.

Saturday night we went to a body building competition to support one of Kyle's fellow commanders. We had never been to one before but we had fun and our friend did really well! Definitely an experience we won't forget.

Sunday we headed off to Las Cruces, NM for the Harvest Wine Festival. We had a great time, there were 17 different wineries that you could sample from (don't worry I didn't sample anything but water). We left with a few marinades and 2 bottles of wine.

Kyle has today off as well but we have plans to relax since he leaves tomorrow for a week.

I hope you all had an amazing weekend!! :)