Taking A Break (Update)

Thanks so much for all the support this morning. Things did not go well this morning so while I pull myself together and continue to figure out next steps I will be taking a big of a break from my blog.

It's very discouraging when you have a doctor tell you that you are broken without even looking at your records and trying to come up with a plan of action. He does not do iui or ivf which is fine but he just didn't seem interested in helping in any way. I suggested going back on clomid or something and he just shrugged it off.

I ended up bawling back in my PCM's office and he was appalled at what happened. He put in a referral for me to be seen at an RE clinic off post. It may not get approved right away but I have my fingers crossed.

New Beginnings

Today, I'm finally meeting with my new RE doctor. I am of course anxious because I know with this appointment will come more tests and more uncertainties. I'm hopeful that this new doctor will come up with a good plan once we have a baseline after testing is complete.  For some reason I feel that this year will be different. I feel a sense of peace about this year and that it could be ours. 

I said to Kyle last night that I'm tired of feeling broken, I'm tired of feeling like I will never be able to accomplish what I was born as a woman to do. We have had 4 1/2 years of heartache and I don't want to feel this way anymore. I want to put all the wonderful baby stuff my sister has given us to good use.

Let Operation Baby Smith 2013 commence!!

If you have a spare second please send a little prayer our way. You have no idea how much all the love and support means to us.

Have a wonderfully amazing day!

What to do?!

Thanks to my awesome sister, I now have a hair appointment for when I go to Vegas next month. I'm very picky with who I let tough my hair so I am thankful I get to go to someone I know and trust. Now that I have the appointment I need to decide what I want, that's where all your lovely opinions come into play.

I usually go lighter for the spring/summer but I'm not sure if I want to do that this year. I know I want to take some length off because my hair is ridiculously thick and feels like it weighs 1,000 pounds. Here are some photos I like, thoughts?!

I love this hairstyle and I love the color but I would go a little bit darker.

I love this hairstyle and the color as well. I would add either some blonde or maybe even red to break it up.

My hair is in desperate need of some TLC, so I can't wait! I might keep it simple or just go a little bit edgier. I will have my sister with me and she is always pretty good at talking me into doing things haha.

Enjoy your day!

Oh how I love weekends!

Besides being a little under the weather this weekend it was a wonderful one! Friday we started it out with dinner here:

I had one of the best filets, it took all I had not to lick my plate and ask for more haha. We had dessert at Orange Leaf, the amazing self serve yogurt place by our house. I could live there.

Saturday we spent most of the day relaxing and lounging around the house since we both were battling colds. That night we headed off to the UTEP basketball game, they were honoring all service members since it was military night. We had a blast!! Even though they lost we had a great and thanks to a mix up we even got free tickets to next Saturdays game as well. 

view from our seats

member of the Fort Bliss reppel team

Sunday morning I woke up with the most awful upset stomach and I really thought it was the flu but as the day went on I was feeling better. I think it may have been caused from all the coughing I was doing. I feel great now. I wanted to take advantage of feeling good so we headed off to the El Paso Zoo, finally!! We had a blast, it took us about 2 hours to walk the whole thing and they had so many amazing animals.

These 3 giraffes were hilarious they kept head butting each other.

sleepy lion

this spider monkey dropped her food in the water to soften it, she was so smart!

seriously how cute is this meerkat!?!?!

this orangutan was so funny, he would not go anywhere without this burlap sack.

After we left the zoo we had lunch at Taco Cabana and did some shopping at the Super Target (will start doing my grocery shopping there from now on!!).

We settled in for the night to watch the Grammy's and Kyle made mandarin chicken, broccoli and rice for dinner. Such a good man!

Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

***Oh and a disclaimer for all you wonderful people who have to wait to file your taxes because of the education credits good news is they will start accepting them on February 14th!!!! Woo Hoo!***

Sunday Social

I figured I would link up with Ashley and Neely today for the Sunday Social. I haven't done one in a while and I really need to get better about it. :)

1. What was your first car?
I got a 1993 Saturn. My parents were so excited to give it to me and I loved that car, minus the fact that it didn't have AC haha.

2. Who was your favorite childhood teacher?
Definitely my kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Rembert. She was absolutely amazing. I would go back and visit her even when I was in HS.

3. Were you involved in any sports/extracurricular activities? Share pictures if you can!
I was in key club and theatre. Oh yes I was a drama nerd here are pictures for ya:

I played Mercutio (I'm on the left in both pictures) in Romeo and Juliet at the Renaissance Fair. I got to sword fight and it was amazing!!!

4. What was your favorite birthday party?
I'm pretty sure it was for my 16th birthday. My parents had a party at the house, it wasn't all sweet 16 but it was a blast.

5. Who was your teen celebrity crush?

Taylor Hanson!! Oh my gosh I was obsessed. I had all of their cd's and any time they were on tv I always recorded it. Yup a bit of a crazy fan.

6. What show/movie did your parents not allow you to watch?

Beavis and Butthead haha! Our older brother would always let us watch it when my parents were gone.

It's always fun to look back and remember fun memories. Now I'm going to lay back on the couch because I'm pretty certain I have the flu. Ugh. 

 

Happy Sunday!!

 

Happy 1 year!

1 year ago today I went through one of the most life changing experiences. I am celebrating 1 year of being glasses free!!

Getting LASIK done was the best decision I have ever made. I now have 20/15 vision and was able to drive the day after my surgery. If any of you are contemplating having it done, just do it!! You will not regret it at all. Now I can't say that I wasn't terrified as I was laying there while the Dr. was working but I would make that choice over and over again. Yes it is pricy but comparing it to the costs of contacts and glasses for the rest of your life made the choice a no brainer. 

I have not had any issues with my vision, no blurring or anything out of the ordinary. 

I used to be this:

and now I'm this:

 100% glasses free!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!!

It's Friday!!!

I just have to say that I feel great today! I seemed to have snapped out of my funk. I finally was able to get a good nights sleep the last 2 nights. Emma and I went on a 1.5 mile walk yesterday and I plan on going for a 3+ mile walk/run by myself today. The weather has been absolutely amazing and I want to take advantage of it. The new Planet Fitness is getting close to opening (they have the machines in yay!) and I know I will spend at least an hour a day there. 

In honor of it being Friday, I want to share with you a few of my favorite things lately:

 I love my camelbak water bottle! I swear I take it everywhere.

My Coach (Emma, yes the style is Emma haha) sunglasses! I have never spent a significant amount on any pair I have owned but I am so glad I bought these.

I absolutely love this game! I've become quite good at the beach volleyball if I do say so myself haha.

It is safe to say that I'm obsessed with Target. I have been there 3x this week mostly just to walk around and browse. 

 Bubble baths!! I have taken one every night this week and it has been amazing. The jetted tub is one of my favorite things about our house.

I love this lip balm! Even Kyle is a fan, I swear I go through a tube of it every few weeks.

Kyle and I spend out nights watching reruns of The Big Bang Theory. It's pretty much a ritual, last night was a new episode and it was hilarious!

Another favorite thing is all my new makeup, I threw out all the old stuff I had (which really wasn't a lot) including makeup brushes. It is nice to start over fresh.

Before I head out for my walk/run I want to leave you with a funny interaction between me and Kyle last night:

Me: Hey can you help me unload the dishwasher?

Kyle: Sure

(he picks up two glasses and puts them on my butt)

Kyle: I just cupped your ass. 

HAHAHA! I tried not to laugh but it was pretty funny.

Have a great Friday!